"I'm not a death rocker, and I don't
First and foremost, a big round of applause goes out to Findadeath.com
friend, Cole Howard, for obtaining these great photographs of the home, in
Seattle, WA. Thank you SO much, Cole.
Now, on to the good stuff.
Kurt Cobain and his junkie wife Courtney Love, moved into this
house, located on Lake
Washington Blvd. E., in Seattle, Washington. The house
they bought was number
171. Here's a view up
the driveway, taken in mid 1999. Here's the front
Just after they moved in, Love and Cobain had an argument, and Kurt locked
himself in a room. Love feared that Kurt was going to do it (kill himself) then,
and called the police. They came, and confiscated three handguns, a
semiautomatic rifle, and 25 boxes of ammunition. Isn't America grand?
My pal Gary Sweeney sends
this: I heard that Kurt once said something about joining "The 27
Club", which is a group of famous musicians who all died at age 27
(Hendrix, Joplin, Morrison, etc...), and that he purposely committed suicide at
age 27 to do so. Link to The
27 Club wiki page.
On Friday the 8th of April 1994, at 8:40am, an electrician named
Gary Smith had come to install a burglar alarm. He was told that the occupants
were out of town. Upon looking in the window of the greenhouse
above the garage (where Kurt's grey Volvo was still
parked) he discovered Kurt, who had at that point, joined the ranks of the
stinky club. Yuck. My guess is that he didn't smell of teen spirit then.
Coroners estimated he'd been dead for 3 days. He was wearing jeans and a light
colored T-shirt. Here's a picture of Kurt's
foot, just inside the window. There are plenty of
other photos of Kurt, close up, but it's pretty nasty. His face was so destroyed that they had to use
fingerprints to identify him.
friend Becki sent in this pic, which is the one making the rounds. I'm
sure I'll get tons of emails telling me it's fake, or not Kurt, or I'm a jerk for
posting it. So, if you get easily grossed out, or offended, by all means do
not click here. Make your own mind up regarding
it's authenticity, but I don't believe it to be real.
settled. It is not real. Please do not mail me telling me exactly
why it isn't real, it isn't real. We know this. It's
done. I'm leaving the picture up, so you can see it for yourself.
HOWEVER*** April 08
Sunny from Tulsa sent this
picture that she believes may be Kurt. I agree, it just might be. It
shows his face in tact. It also is undeniably the same tiles on the
floor. Could be a phony, I dunno. Just for yourself. It's
Gary Smith said at the time, "I saw this body lying there on the floor.
At first I thought it was a mannequin. Then I noticed it had blood in the right
ear. Then I saw the shotgun lying across his chest pointing up at his
On the floor next to his body, was his drivers license, and on a shelf about
10 feet away, skewered into a potted plant by a pen, was his one page suicide
note, written in red ink. Some of the note read, "It's better to burn out
than fade away
I haven't felt the excitement
for too many years now,"
"I feel guilty beyond words about these things
when we are backstage and
the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins, it doesn't affect
me." "The fact is
I can't fool you, any of you. It simply isn't fair
to you or to me
the worst crime I can think of would be to pull people off by
faking it and pretending as if I were having 100% fun." He signed it,
"I love you. I love you."
January 2000 - Findadeath.com friends Kevin and Jo
supplied us with a real copy of the suicide note. Read
it here! Also, another great friend of ours, Patricia McDonough
supplied me with a literal translation. Read
it here. Thanks so much, you guys.
February 2002, Findadeath.com friend Clint Ford sends us this info about THE
"Wondering if you've heard about the still-pending investigation regarding Kurt Cobain's death? It seems that they're investigating the legitimacy of
the suicide note. If you look at the note he left, he mentions no really direct hints of suicide in the entire letter until the bottom-- which is
written COMPLETELY DIFFERENT from the way the majority of the letter was penned. Not to mention the fact that the different-looking part of the
letter is written AFTER Kurt had already signed it. Handwriting experts are still studying it to determine if it could've been written by the same hand.
There is some speculation from experts that are suggesting that it is entirely possible that Kurt wrote the letter for a farewell speech to his
fans, because he was planning on leaving Nirvana and retiring from the business. Further, that someone found the letter somehow (whether it had
been discarded because Kurt changed his mind, or if it was just found) -- and decided it looked enough like a suicide note, so they just added the text at
the end, to make no doubt in people's minds. Then, they were free to polish off Kurt, with no strings attached."
Interesting. Thanks Clint!
Kurt was 27 years old.
Wanna see the gun?
Findadeath.com friend Jason sends us this.
His body was taken to the Bleitz Funeral Home, at 316 Florentia St, in
Seattle. The day after they found him, Courtney Love clipped a lock of Kurt's
hair, and washed it (bet thats the first time that's happened in a long
time). She even started wearing his clothes, in an effort to grieve. The funeral
home cremated him.
From Findadeath.com friend Mike:
I have a contact at the funeral
home where Kurt was taken. He snuck my wife in to view his body.
First off, the weapon used was a 20 gauge, not a 12 gauge shotgun. This is
important, because a 20 is considerably less powerful than a 12. Second, he was
NOT all fucked up. There was some distortion to the top of his head, but by and
large his head, and especially his face, were in good shape.
My wife paid her respects,
clipped a lock of hair, and that was that. She also brought home an empty
Marlboro box that Courtney discarded during her viewing. You might also be
interested to know that while she (Courtney) was with the body, she shoved his
hand up her skirt...
I would expect nothing less of her. Thanks Mike.
On Sunday the 10th, at 5pm, there was an outdoor
memorial service held in the Seattle Center's Flag
Pavilion. 5000 fans listened to a tape recording of Courtney Love reading the
suicide note, and calling Kurt and asshole, and a fucker. But that she loved
him. During that vigil, there was a real memorial service held a few blocks
away, at the Unity Church of Truth. Love, Kurt's sister Kim, and other family
members attended it. Dressed in black, Love read from the Bible, and a portion
of the suicide note. Michael Stipe of REM also spoke.
After the public memorial, some insane 28-year-old fan went home and blew his
own brains out.
In July of 1995, an article appeared in the LA Times, that Courtney was
having a problem finding a resting-place for Kurt's ashes. No cemetery nearby
would take him in, for fear of vandalism, ala Morrison. Rumor has it that Love
put the ashes in her teddy bear, and my pal Jim at Findagrave.com
states that Kurt's ashes were finally scattered in the Wishkah River, Washington.
In 1996, Courtney made an announcement that she was tearing down the
garage/greenhouse where Kurt killed himself. "I'm knocking down the
greenhouse where Kurt died because it's become bigger than the Space
Needle." She obviously meant it. Here's the
bulldozer, doing the job. Just for the heck of it,
view of the house.
In August of 1994, the following article ran in the LA Times:
"Controversial singer Courtney Love ended her set midway through after a
fan threw a shotgun shell casing onto the stage during her Lollapalooza show in
Pittsburgh. Love's husband, rocker Kurt Cobain, used a shotgun to kill himself
last year. "One singular individual with a very sick mind threw something
so offensive onto the stage, that it was no longer possible for the band to
continue," an announcer told about 15,000 people Monday after Love left
with her band, Hole. Lovely.
UPDATE March 2005, from
Findadeath friend Kelly:
Greetings, lovely site! I am a
amateur ballistician, and wanted to comment on the KC
First off, if Kurt had used a 20 instead of a
12,as Mike wrote, the damage would still have been
considerable. The higher power 3" "Magnum" 20ga
shells actually are more powerful then 2.75"
"standard" 12 gauge shells. Even if it was a 2.75" 20ga
used, it's still more then enough to remove the head
from the body.
Divers often use "bang sticks" to
defend against sharks that use 12 or 20 gauge shells with no shot charge, the force of the escaping gasses
caused by the powder burning is devastating without a shot charge.
Keep up the good work!
Scott, I used to be in a band, and
we played all over, including up in the NW. We had a following and all, and Kurt really liked
us. But before that, we knew Courtney because she lived in SF. When we were on tour, we stopped and stayed overnight at her
place in Portland. This was long before Kurt.
I didn't know Courtney as well as the others in the band. She was really frightening to me, but only in her energy, not in
anything she actually did to me. She was well known for borrowing your clothes and never returning
them, or staying overnight at your place, and running up the long distance phone bill and stuff. She was out of control. From
all reports and gossip I hear, she is still out of control.
OK here's the item for your site: (Please keep this anonymous. Thank
After Kurt returned home early from botched rehab, he and Courtney were fighting a lot. Like, serious toxic crazy fighting.
Instead of consulting a marriage counselor, or finishing rehab and getting off drugs,
Courtney sent for her ex-boyfriend, now-gay Roddy
Bottum from Faith No More.
Her intent was for Roddy to mediate or help them in whatever way her old friend could. What he found was vicious fighting,
Kurt crying, a real bad scene. He left after a short time. I don't know
how long he was there. Soon after, Kurt killed himself. (I can't remember how soon after Roddy
While Courtney certainly did not kill Kurt, the description of their last days led me and my friends to conclude that she
pushed a very vulnerable man to a very angry and self-destructive act.
Extra tidbit for you, but not for the site: Kurt loved Frightwig, and this pissed off Courtney, who could not stand for anyone
else, especially a girl band, to get any attention from Kurt.
On his MTV Unplugged concert, you
can see he's wearing a Frightwig T-shirt. If you want to make Courtney mad, wear one of these T-shirts. She's SO jealous, and really, she never
had any reason to be.
She's actually an alright song-writer herself, and always thought she was very talented. But ew, her
Thanks for the info!